deep inside i'm falling, baby, catch me if you can.
mayday parade // if you can't live without me, why aren't you dead yet?
i blinked my eyes open into the bleak darkness, the smell of smoke was filling my nostrils to where i could barely breathe. i heard, "odessa, odessa, help!" being screamed over and over again, but i was paralyzed. i couldn't move, all i could do was cry and cry. i wanted to run towards the noise, but it was like my legs were glued to the ground. i watch the flames dance around in the air, like they were a member of an elite ballet dance group.
i was screaming and crying and i could hear the sirens in the distance calling loudly, so i opened my eyes again, but this time i wasn't in my reoccuring nightmare, i was in my bed, safe and sound. or so it seemed.
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i woke up to the sound of my alarm clock blaring and my head pounding like it was the bass in a dubstep song. i rolled over to check my phone to see if i had any missed texts. i smiled at one and then got up.
i felt dizzy and groggy, which was weird because i didn't drink that much last night, i just got a little tipsy.
that dream had my mind so cloudy and fizzy, all i wanted was a cup of coffee and a good book. i pulled a sweater and some leggings on, and slowly walked down the stairs toward the quad.
i was looking around at all the faces to see if i saw one i recognized, olly or kinsley or jensie. i didn't see any of them around, so i headed toward the lunch room alone.
i didn't make it there, though. i stopped dead in my tracks. my mouth forming a little 'o' shape.
there he was, my worst nightmare, come back to haunt me. i couldn't believe it. i hated him so much that the sight of him made me sick.
i turned on my heels, trying to keep my composure until i made it to my room, and when i did, i cried until i couldn't breathe.
all i could see was his face gleaming at me in the moonlight, that sinister grin that i thought was endearing at the time was shining brighter than a spotlight. he was there that night, he witnessed it all, and now he's back to make me feel worse than i already do.
if this place was bad enough already, him being here made it hell. complete and utter hell.
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